Self Indulgence

I got a new phone too! (Too? You know who I'm talking to *grin*)

This is the first expensive thing I ever bought myself. I started with a new 2-year plan so that cut the price down $50. The 600 minutes plan cost $40, plus going to add on the $5 for 400 in/out text messages/month, and MAY or may not add that $20 for internet access anywhere, so I'm not limited to searching for hotspots.

Total cost? $250 up front, and $65 a month? ... I may drop it to $45 a month, depending, gotta try it out, but I will probably get the interent access. This means I can blog from anywhere! (gasp!) Joy~

It doesn't ship here (store was out) until Tuesday/Wednesday, so I must stick with me generic old school phone that only calls people. Oh joy, I don't mind, I've had it for 3 years now. *nods* ^_^:

Purpose

I realise the purpose of me working this job. I am working for the lesser of two Evils. I am working against a greater Evil, but working for another Evil. Vague, I know, but until it's over, I cannot say exactly what. This 'industry' is far more corrupt than I originally thought. See me in three weeks, and I'll see what I can say. *sigh* Morals makes this hard, but it's better this way, after reflecting it. Dirty, dirty buisness, this Hollywood.

Work Boring = Bored Critiq

One free point to the first person to respond =( I am SO BORED. Work is >:(

Countdown!

Everyone else has, and it looks like a nice idea. Timers! *looks up* When my job reaches Critical mass, when the shit, will hit the fan, and the second, is when I turn 21. *nods*

Mario <3

Real Life, Super Mario

*bows* linked from a freind, and I'd have to say, I had a good laugh. None of us took part in this, and I have no idea where it's from (other than the title at the beginning).

No Vacation

I wanted to take the weekend off, to Drive to Vegas (4 hours from Los Angeles) to see Tasha, but work is piled up high, hence, my lack of posts as of late. Stressed out a bit too, so I'm sorry to you faithful few, who post on and read my blog. I'll be lucky if I can post every other day as it is. I won't have any days off (quite litterally, working 6~7 days a week probably) for the next 2, maybe 3 weeks. *sigh* I miss her so~

Today's word, Priorities. *nods* =(

Delayed Posts - Short Review : Silent Hill -

Officially, it's Saturday, 2:20am. Let me explain. Thursday, took time off work, was suppose to help a freind move/paint a room in their new place. That fell through, so then it was just a dilly-dally day, hanging out. Friday, suppose to have a day of fun with freinds. That kinda fell through, though I did get to see Silent Hill, which I was very very excited for... and was dissapointed, *tear*, but not spurised at my dissapointment. So now, Saturday, here I stand... or sit, actually. A somewhat wasted "weekend" for me, probably back to work feeling unaccomplished as usual. I had plans Saturday, but they fell through, because everyone was busy again. The new Magic the Gathering set, Dissensions is having a Pre-release tournament Saturday, but everyone was preoccupied, and so, I dislike going to events alone, what's the point? *sigh* I'll call into work and tell them I'm coming in after all. Probably post a review of Silent Hill when I get a chance. I can, however give a short, spoiler free review of Silent Hill.

Silent Hill (R)
3/7
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It was bad, not horrible, but the storytelling could have been told better. Rather than take creative lisence on the story telling part (ie, go here, find out information, go here, find out information, continue as needed, big story revealed at the end), they decided to follow that formula to the very core. It was a giant cookie crumb hunt. Look, a clue, follow it, learn some new details, follow the next clue. *sigh* It works ok in a game, because you're interacting, but in a movie, it's just played out.

If you're expecting many cameos from your favorite monsters, sorry to say, a small spoiler but not actually a 'spoiler'. Pyramid head is in it for all of 3 minutes spread out through the movie, in about 3 or 4 scenes. He is very impressive, however, and does one really, really amazing trick, which was very impressive. Only cameos are Pyramid head, and the Nurses, both of which are revealed in the Trailer. They added two or three new monsters, but that's about it.

Story, which they took much liberty in changing for the big screen (bad descision in my opinion). Many things they took out, I could understand, but they changed it a LOT, in ways that made it less ominous, scary or intriguing. They took out a lot of the mystery, and that makes me sad. *tear*

Dialoge was sad at points, and the script left me wanting more. A lack of understanding of social taboos and human interaction was very obvious (meaning, in a paticular situation, people will react in a believable fashion. This movie, did not know that quite often).

Music was great, a lot of it was taken directly out of the game, and that added a good segway between mediums, from video games to the silver screen. Sound effects were great as well, the sound was just overall well done. Voices (while dilaogue was poor) were well done as well.

Overall, there were too many "hehe" scenes, and a few "haha" scenes, that could have easily been avoided with good dialoge and directing. It does have a few "ugh" gross scenes, which I enjoyed (>:D), and the story was pretty good (but a step down from the first game), but not a "MUST SEE" movie, or even a "you should probably see it" movie.

Nintendo DS

A list of my DS games, and are they right for you? (looks at Monika) =P
-in an almost alphabetical order-

Advance Wars, Dual Strike - Tactical , Strategy, Turn Based, High Replay
If you've ever played the previous installments of the game, you're about to be treated to whole new levels of amazing. More units, more game modes, more more more! Advance Wars is a turn based tactical war game, where you control a Commanding Officer who issues orders to the troops on the field. You control the bases, deploy units, and attempt to destroy or conquer the enemy (plus, other objectives depending on the mission). It's a lot of fun, the learning curve is a bit steep, but once you get over it, you'll be drowing in Tactical Strategy, mmm. Hotseat with your freinds, or play wirelessly, you can have up to 4 players per game, and can be teams or agaisnt each other. Customized maps, character colors (and alternate outfits), dozens of COs, a Hard campaign after the regular Campaign, War Room, Real Time, and more, this game has a lot of replay. *heart*


Animal Crossing, Monika Gone Wild - Social, Sim, High Replay if you have freinds *tear*
Ever play the Gamecube version? Same thing, but more of it. More items to buy, more designs to create, more people to meet, more festivals, more holiday treats, more more more. Animal Crossing is a virtal world, akin to playing a Sims type game, but much more fun. You don't spend your day washing your hands or going to the bathroom, (shakes angry fist at sims) but spend it socializing with the NPCs of the town, other animals who each have a distinct personality. You build up freindships, give/sell/trade items with them, celebrate the hollidays, make snowmen, have fishing contests, catch bugs, find fossils, and tons more. The DS version allows you to visit your freind's in their town, or vice versa. Grab a couple friends and have them visit your town, and have lots of fun as you bury pitfall seeds and have them fall into them *chuckles*.

Battles of Prince of Persia - Tactical, Strategy, Card Based, Good Replay
Not much to say, because I never really got into it, it's a great game, but I've not the time to learn all the cards, and make decks. The mechanics are fun, and if you're really into Tactical war games, this'll do you justice, but don't expect pick up and play like Advance Wars. Sure there's a steep learning curve there too, but this one is monsterous. Prepare to sit down and really really set time aside to learn the game. I've learned enough to like it, to love it, but not enough to want to play it for that long. Strange huh?

Bust a Move DS - Puzzle (Also known as Puzzle Bobble DS)
What's there to say? A lot more than you think. Bust a move, where you guide the gun (gun?) at the bottom to shoot colorful bubbles towards the top, and try to get 3+ to touch each other, and they go pop! What's new? Touch Screen goodness, and new balls (hehe, balls). You use the touch screen to aim (more accurate than I thought it would be), and new special balls to attack with. The Bowling Ball (I think), which just goes through everything it touches (shoot at a very very shallow angle and it'll clear the whole screen), and the Shiny ball? It clears everything of one color, the one you hit. It's fun, and can have up to 7 other players with DS' but without the cartridge to play. Fun :D

Castlevania, Dawn of Sorrow - Side Scrolling, Action, RPG
Ever play Castlevania, Symphony of the Night for the PSX? Ever play Castlevania, Aria of Sorrow? Well here's the successor to them both, though nothing beats Symphony of the Night, this and Aria come close. Similar playing style, a typical Side Scrolling Castlevania game, but with RPG elements. You find weapons, armor, equipment, potions, and all sorts of traditional RPG items. You get new abilities (megamanesque) and follow a nice story, as you meet new enemies, new allies, and explore new locals. It's great fun, and offers pretty good replay, and if you're really into it, there's a limited dungeon editor, where you can place monsters and have speed trails, and share with your freinds, compete, trade, etc. Tons of secrets, and quite a few unlockables.

Mario Kart DS - Racing, Combat?
Yes, Mario Kart, who hasn't heard of it? This time, they added a lot. Normally, you have 4 races in each cup, Mushroom, Flower, Star, and Special, right? Well, they have twice as many courses now, having a retro-line of tracks, from the Super Nintendo, Game Cube, and Game Boy Advance versions of the game. Yes, a seperate Mushroom and friends cup line is avalable to play (after unlocking them? I cannot recall), and they are fun, like you remember them, but not the same, because we're on a DS now.

Tetris DS - Puzzle, Communism, Crack, Delicious Crack of a Game
Many many new play modes, and some are a welcome addition to the crack that is Tetris. Most Notable is Push Mode. Thats right, push. Think of it this way. If the bottom of your screen, was the bottom of another player's screen, and you were sitting across from each other, and your pieces was falling towards him and vice verca, what would it play like? CRACK. Everytime you clear 2+ lines, it pushes him towards the top, and everytime he clears 2+ lines, you get pushed back too. You are interacting on the same board, so your pieces (if there's nothing to land on) can actually fall through to his side and do nothing, or get in his way. It's crack, omg the player intraction is addicting. The other play modes are Puzzle (you have only these piecces, clear the screen, Touch Mode (move pieces with the stilus), Mission Mode, where you're givien a task (Use the long piece to clear 4 lines at once/Use only the L piece to clear 4 lines total/Speed up! Clear 5 lines!/Clear a line, no rotation!, etc), Classic mode (yes, classic <3), style="font-weight: bold;">Phoenix Wright, Ace Attorny - ???
Borrowed from a friend, haven't played it yet, omg Tetris =(

Scheduled outage at 4PM PST

According to Blogger, we will have a brief 45 min outage for a scheduled maitenance. We will still be able to view our blogs though.

Reinventing The Wheel To Run Myself Over

I feel that I've gotten into the motion now. I use to be thrilled every other day, when I get to look up a word to post, or to share every funny image I've found with you all, but now, I feel like it's a routine. *tear* I get bored and jaded very easily, so I'm suprised this blog has even lasted a week, let alone this long. *not exactly sure how long it's been*

I guess this post has no meaning either, my posts now are far too serious for me to even enjoy. While I do enjoy sharing my life with you all, I hope to be able to post just as much interesting/funny/thought provoking posts as well, and will re-examine how I handle the blog from this point.

By the way, Title of this post is a Fall Out Boy song. I first heard it in Burnout 3: Takedown. <3 great game series, great band <3

Word - 20 - Insatiable

insatiable

One entry found for insatiable.

Main Entry: in·sa·tia·ble
Pronunciation: (")in-'sA-sh&-b&l
Function: adjective
Etymology: Middle English insaciable, from Middle French, from Latin insatiabilis, from in- + satiare to satisfy -- more at SATIATE
: incapable of being satisfied : QUENCHLESS insatiable desire for wealth>
- in·sa·tia·bil·i·ty /(")in-"sA-sh&-'bi-l&-tE/ noun
- in·sa·tia·ble·ness /(")in-'sA-sh&-b&l-n&s/ noun
- in·sa·tia·bly /-blE/ adverb

Synonyms: clamorous, crying, demanding, desiring, exigent, gluttonous, greedy, importunate, insatiate, insistent, intemperate, pressing, quenchless, rapacious, ravenous, unappeasable, unquenchable, unsatisfiable, unsatisfied, urgent, voracious, yearning

"Tasha, my love for you is insatiable, gluttonous, quenchless, ravenous, unappeasable, unquenchable, unsatisfiable, voracious, how I yearn for it." <3

Pocky etc! <3

Pocky, and other Meiji products. (Click for larger image)

From left to right: 2006 Limited Edition "Takenokono Sato Cookie Ichigo Meiji Br" (I have no idea), Hello Panda Chocolate (Yes, the infamoust "Hello Panda".), Fromage "Koeda Fromage Morinaga Br) [looks like the thing before Br is the Company, Formage is by Morinaga, for example], Pucca Chocolate Banana Flavored, the famous Pocky, Apollo Choco, Strawberry flavored chocolate and chocolate, together for a powerful sweet taste, oh, it's simply delicious, and las, Reverse Choco [It's like an inverted Pocky!]. Oh, and hidden in the back is is Momo no Tenten Sui. I was told it was a peach drink, and it does taste like it, but the ingredients say apple, not peach! Oy!
EDIT: Oh, it seems my phone made a guest appearance! That blue bump behind the phone is my Winnie the Pooh in a Cat suit dangler thing.

And, as promised, SOME pictures from a Japanese market in San Gabriel, California (near LA).
* The wide shot, trying to get as much into it as possible, but there's still a lot of the row missing on the right side. Picture 1
* Pretz, Pocky, and other assorted Candies! Picture 2
* More of the above, with a different assortment lol Picture 3

EDIT: Ok, that limtied Edition thing on the left is delicious. I didn't come here to post about that though, but now, thinking about it, I guess I could review the snacks I have purchased. I brought it up though, to point out the awesome box design. I've seen this once before, and would like to share THIS with you all today.

The Box is HUGE, and as you can see from my phone, the treats inside are huge too (individually wrapped for your convenience). The top of the box (refer to the first picture) opens all the way around, and leaves the back (with indents to bend easier) folds down, and forms a box top. It's tight enough to hold itself cloesd, but not tight enough to cause trouble. Japan amazes me. <3

The treat itself is a blend between crunchy, sweet, and a bit of tangyness. It's an overall pleasureable experience, but I don't know if I'd go crazy over it. While it's good, It wasn't enough to make me need a change of pants.

Hello Panda is the same as Koalas, or any misc. ammount of Chocolate filled biscuts you see on the market... so you know it's good. =P

Fromage is an interesting flavor, it's that flavor I can't quite place, it's not chocolate in flavor, (or at least what I'm use to), it has butter, cocoa, and cheese butter as some of the ingredients, and it's strange. It's not bad, but it's not what I expected. I'll give it a try again later. The box is filled with eight of 2 packs (each pack is individually wrapped). Firm, a slight crunch to it (from rice krispy type things), creamy, and pretty good. Numnum <3

Pucca Banana is good, chocolate cookie outside, sweet banana inside. It's not too sweet, and the chocolate is a little too strong, and hides the banana goodness, but it's still good.

Pocky: nuff said.

Strawberry things I've had before, and they are just amazing. If you like chocolate, get it. That's all there is to it.

Reverse Choco: Delicious. It's a cookie outside with chocoalte filling inside. It's solid, and I mean solid. They arent light pocky sticks, you've got yourself a flavor packed stick of chocolate cookie and chocolate filling. Yummy <3

Sorry for the Delay

Almosty posted this as "Sorry for th Dealy". Anyways, I've been afk from the computer for most of the weekend, I went to the Dentist on Sunday (Yes, Easter, amazing huh?). I've had this pain in my right lower side of my jaw, that I know is from this cracked tooth I've had. Cracked? Yes, about a year ago (I distinctively rememeber I got it when I was driving back down from Northern California while visiting a friend's graduation), where I was eating a starburst and then suddenly ... "wow ... why is my starburst crunchy?" I thought to myself... yeah, I'm sure you can all put 1 and 1 together. It was my wisdom tooth, lower right side.

The tooth was growing in sideways (horizontally) into the tooth next to it. The pain (which I figured out, because the pain was occasional and not constant) was because the nerve had a lot of pressure pushed onto it, from being pressed against another tooth, and because the tooth was growing in side ways... oh, and from being half a tooth, and very very rotten. See, having half a tooth makes it easy to get food, and germs stuck in there, no matter how much you brush. "A tooth is like a tire, if there's a hole, you gotta fix it right away, don't wait until it's completely flat." says my doctor, and I didn't disagree, but I agree more than I did before.

It had to go, there was no saving it. The x-rays showed that it was not 'bad', but into the 'very bad' part. Horrible perhaps. Anyways, He said this should have been taken care of when I first got the tooth cracked/broken. I couldn't because at that time, I was having a dramatic life (Drama 1.1 below). This wasn't going to be a simple "sleep then wake up" ordeal, oh god no, has life ever been that kind to me? I think not.

First, it was Sunday, Easter Sunday, so nobody was working. The doctor was only in as a favor to a freind of my mom's church group. They're all really nice and I guess since it's Sunday, Easter Sunday, it was ok in his book. The office was nice, didn't look like a shed with steak knives as tools, it was a nice large, wholesome looking office, felt homely.

The x-rays also said that my 3 other teeth need to be pulled, my wisdom teeth in the other corners. *cries* This is what happens when you neglect yourself your whole life (see drama 1.2 below). Those'll be taken care of another. For now, the immediate problem is clear. I had to go under the knife.

Yes, 'dental surgery'. See, for wisdom teeth, it's a common procedure, and I didn't know that. I thought he was going to gas me, and I'll wake up instantly, and have had the teeth removed. Oh, how very wrong I was. I was awake for the whole thing. He did drug me up with novacaine though (I think that's what it was, and I think that's how you spell it, I was too preoccupied with the operation to try to remember such things).

Here's where it gets a bit 'graphic'. This section is not for the following people to read:
* People who hate needles
* People who hate dentists
* People who hate dentist needles
* People who hate blood
* People who HATE clowns

READ AT YOUR OWN DISCOMFORT
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First, he got a cotton swab and rubbed the inside of my mouth, the right side, with a pink gel. It was (I assume) a dissinfectant, and it was tastey. Ahh, technology. Anyways, afterwards, he grabbed a needle that was crooked, like _/ Like that, I'm sure it was designed that way, not bent on accident. You know, better angle to inject drugs into me. He had to inject it into my gums, and cheek, and for the gums, I felt a sharp pressure, slight pain. He did this 2 or 3 times, each time the pressure lessened, the pain dissapated. He then did it to my cheek too, but he couldn't jab the needle into my cheek so he held my cheek with one hand and gently shook it, I guess you could say, letting the needle pierce into it without putting pressure with the needle.

Then, after injecting me probably close to 10 times, he grabbed a tool (I was staring at the cieling, trying NOT to concentrate on the details) and started applying pressure to it and he asked if it hurt and, my god yes, it did. He was nice though, "That's ok, we're just going to have to inject more pain killers into you." And boy, that he did. We did this maybe 10 times (each time consisting of 5 or 6 injections and another "does this hurt" check). Between each one, I had to get up and spit into the sink, and there was blood. Good ammount of blood.

Then the drilling. Ahh, the world famous dentist's drill. Horrifyng to hear, terrifying to experience. I didn't see exactly what he was doing, because I was, as I said, starting into the cieling, trying to fight the urge to punch him in the face and run for my life. Not that I hated him, but I was afraid I'd do something I'd regret. He drilled, slowly at first, I could hear the drill spin, pick up speed, spin spin faster faster. The pain. My god, I've never felt such pain in my life. It was a pain that struck me to the core of my very being. I screamed out, but he didn't stop. It was one of those "just a little more and it'll be over, better than stopping and having to do this whole thing again". I didn't hold a grudge, he was doing his job, he was nice and I liked him.

He was cutting off the nerve, it was exposed, and he had to take care of it. I understood what I was in for, but I didn't expect to cry. It was a strange feeling really, crying out in pain, tears streaming down my cheek, a silent crying, for he was in my mouth performing an operation. I couldn't cry, but I was. Part of me thought "No way, I can't be crying," but another part was overjoyed that I could still cry. I wanted to cry, tears of joy, and tears of pain, but ... well more so wanting to cry tears of joy. I'm very morbid, and damn if it doesn't fuck me up. I thought about Tasha, and how if I died here, how much it would hurt her. It made me cry more, I wanted to bawl but I couldn't. I thought about wanting to call her, to tell her how I feel, to hold her hand in the procedure, and to hold her. He stopped, he let me up, my god, I coughed, my breathing was irregular, fast, short breaths. I couldn't stop shaking, I couldn't breathe. I spit out the blood, saliva, puss, whatever else there was. I sat there... shaking ... trying to calm down, to think about nothing.

*sigh* after about a minute, I'm calm enough to go back. I layed down, and he kept pumping me full of pain killers, he said something like, more than 10 CCs of it, I don't have any idea how much that is, anyone want to help me with that? Then he said "I'm actually going to have to cut your gums, and cut the tooth in half for this procedure." *sweatdrop* Irk? ... ok ... ok ... Well, he starts cutting, and I can hear it, I feel pressure, but no pain. I look up, gripping the chair, focusing on looking at nothing.

I could feel everything, but it didn't hurt. Has anyone ever seen saw? The beginning where the (spoilers?) girl cuts open the guy, in the first 15 minutes of the movie.(end spoilers?). I wonder if that's what they meant. I could feel the crushing of the teeth, the whirling of the drill, air pressing against my flesh from it. Cracking, crunch, a piece or two breaks off, I feel the tooth crumbling, pieces sitting in my mouth, trying not to swallow them. Crack. Crack. A piece breaks off again, he grabs the plyers (spelling?), and begins to tug. I feel no pain, but I efel the resistance, my jaw was locked in an open position from holding it like that so long, but I felt him pull it out, I didn't look, but I felt a void of pressure where there was resistance, I felt a lack of something, but not being able to feel, I just felt slightly empty. Then, again, another pull, again, I felt it, felt nothing. But it was almost over, my eyes red, watery, I haven't cried in so long, it felt so good.

The process (from beginning to end) was probably 45 min. He took out the back two teeth, felt nothing, but the bleeding. Well, I didn't feel the bleeding, I felt the blood filling my mouth. I would have to spit every 30 seconds or so, or swallow. I didn't want that. He gave me a pack of linnen-like cotton cloth, and I as to hold and bite down on them.

The pain was only that one time, those few moments, couldn't have been more than 4 seconds, but it was a very long 4 seconds... Ok, so the clowns part I just threw in, there were no clowns involved with this story at all, but for those of you who didn't read it (funny, because only those who did read it would be seeing this), you're all paranoid about "what the fuck, a clown in the dentist office?!"
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Drama 1.1 - I was at a point in my life where I was about to leave home due to circumstances beyond my control... Yes, of course I'm talking about my mother, thanks Freud.
Drama 1.2 - "Give up on emotions, fear, pain, anger, happyness. These are weaknesses that will only control you, don't let them." - I use to think like that, because of drama growing up, it was easier to feel nothing, than anything.

Word - 18 Distal (Magical Bonus 19th word! - Sestina)

distal

One entry found for distal.

Main Entry: dis·tal
Pronunciation: 'dis-t^&l
Function: adjective
Etymology: distant + -al
1 : situated away from the point of attachment or origin or a central point especially of the body -- compare PROXIMAL
2 : of, relating to, or being the surface of a tooth that is next to the tooth behind it or that is farthest from the middle of the front of the jaw -- compare MESIAL 2
- dis·tal·ly /-t^&l-E/ adverb

"The second definition for Distal confounds me greatly. So much, in fact, that my head exploded to a distal point, far away from me." Uhh... yeah? Does that look right to you? I don't know. My head exploded so I'm typing out of pure willpower now.

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Oh snap I forgot to post a word on Thursday pretend I didn't forget!

sestina

One entry found for sestina.

Main Entry: ses·ti·na
Pronunciation: se-'stE-n&
Function: noun
Etymology: Italian, from sesto sixth
: a lyrical fixed form consisting of six 6-line usually unrhymed stanzas in which the end words of the first stanza recur as end words of the following five stanzas in a successively rotating order and as the middle and end words of the three verses of the concluding tercet

"... my brain hurts."

A tale of two dogs

My Dogs

Left to Right:

Tiger - Male - Chowchow - Fluffy - Laid Back - Fluffy - Fluffy - Fluffy <3
Sophie - Female - ???? - Not so Fluffy - Attention Whore - Laid Back <3


I've had Tiger for like, 9 years, since he was a puppy. My mom's freinds had a litter of 5 I think, and they gave us the 2nd youngest one. They wanted to keep the youngest one, so we got the 2nd youngest one. He's really, really laid back. You can walk up to him, and he'll barely move, he might get up to see who it is, but he'll just as likely lay there. You can pet him, and he'll stay there. You can wipe his eyes clean, and he'll move a bit. He's only super sensetive with his nose, that'll get him. Oh, and picking him up, he doesn't like that too much. =P He will get excited if you want to play, or if you have food, or if he's hungry, or if new people come over, but man, he's just too nice. I once fed him a bone, and he quickly grabbed it, but once his teeth touched my hand, he backed off, and bit the bone, and was gentle about it. Doesn't pull things out of your hand, kinda holds on, and waits for you to let go <3

Sophie is a bit more aggressive, and loves attention. She's always getting jealous of I pet Tiger and not her. She's also prone to laying on her back all the time, wanting to be rubbed on her belly, and is really submisive. Tiger's a bit less that way, but both are laid back like that. I keep using those words, I can't think of any other word/phrase to use. Sophie is about 3, I think, it's been a while since we adopted her.

Spotlight: The Critiq and a Webcomic

It's somewhat official now, me and my ... can I still call her my 'sister'? It feels right and yet, so wrong. It's strange, we use these 'titles' to make associating with each other easier, but in the end, it seems to backfire a bit. We use these terms to help define relationships because it's awkward not knowing where your walls are, where you're limited to. Some would feel more comfortable with being boxed in, than in an open field filled with "What if"s. Initially, I wanted to just be close, but didn't think that a relationship was possible, so picking up the term Oniichan and Imotou (older brother/younger sister) was no problem, but after the possibility of being more than just good freinds came up ... it feels a tad awkward now.

We've decided we're going to go for it, and we're treating each other as 'mates' now, I guess you could say. As awkward as that sounds, it's more comfortable for me to say that then "boyfriend/girlfriend". Part of my emotional issues, steming from years of drama I guess (more on that later perhaps). But we're both broken, and trying to help fix each other. No more temporary patches of band aids and gauze, but we're going to try and fix the real problems, not the symptoms.

Feeling compete, at age 20? Probably not. I turn 21 in November, and my life feels ... good. I have someone I'm with, and I am content with where my life is right now. I have a nice job (though temporary), and am planning to go back to school eventually. I'm happy with how my life is, drama is nearly all sorted out... I don't think you can ever go look back and say "Well, I'm satisfied now." You keep going on, reaching for higher goals, and trying to accomplish more. Baby steps, baby steps, and a leap here and there. I mean, I was content with my life when I was 9... well, content with how things were enough to 'leave' it. But I guess the harder part is being content enough to NOT leave it, prematurely. I'm getting close, but not nearly there yet. I wouldn't leave it for fear of hurting my freinds, but that's not enough. I need to want to stay of my own free will, of my choice, a bit selfish, but hey, I'm allowed to care about myself just a smidge ne?

A couple notes: I've had 113 posts now I think, but nearly all of them were random blabs and jests of good humor, or bad humor, depending on how you look at it. How many deep, meaningful ones have I had? 3 or 4? At most? That's fine, I like to give life a lighter note. Too much drama, I couldn't take it if I couldn't laugh at myself now and then.

Webcomic: Questionable Content; too similar to my life for me to read anymore. I took a break from it when I lost my interent, but now that I go back and look at it, I'm concerned that it'd hit too close to home. Guy likes girl. Girl has issues, and can't get with him. Guy still likes her. She thinks she likes him. Girl's boss, one of her only friends. Boss starts liking guy. Guy starts liking boss. Guy and girl and boss, love triangle, complciated. Girl pushes guy away and guy gets with boss. Girl is torn. Guy and Boss are happy, but feel a bit uncomfortable. That's like, kind of a sum up of what happens.

Little Tokyo, Los Angeles

The store wouldn't let me take pictures of the pocky, so I'll have to go to this other Japanese store, so I'll have to do that tomorrow maybe. I got Strawberry, Strawberry Creme, and Moose (yes, they spell it Moose), and all are decent, but Strawberry Creme, is by far, the best. Also, Got 2 kinds of Melty Blend (best chcolate EVER), Royal Cacao (coco?) and Royal Almond (mmmmm). I got Kiwi Flavored Ramune, and some other stuff, like an FMA keychain to go with my FMA dogtag ^_^ This Display is one of the few. It's a rather small store, but it's packed full of Anime goodness. Bleach? They have a few models of it, just a few. This book store, has a few CDs, well, more than a few, but not a ton. Maybe a ton. And then some. some. And some Manga too.... some ... a little...

I was actually doing some reconasance (spelling?) for a couple friends, doing price checks for them, and might be the middle man for them and their anime/manga/etc needs for a few items. :D This is a messy post, but I had like 60 pictures to sift through, I made the folder public, so if this is too annoying, I'll just let you use this adress here.

EDIT: OMG it timed out on me and posted itself 3 times wth =( *tear*

Word - 17 - Autochthonous

Main Entry: au·toch·tho·nous
Pronunciation: o-'täk-th&-n&s
Function: adjective
1 : INDIGENOUS, NATIVE autochthonous people>
2 : formed or originating in the place where found autochthonous infection>
- au·toch·tho·nous·ly adverb

"I nearly broke my tongue trying to pronounce autoch..autok..autochton....the word of the day, and saying it a day late made it harder too!" *tear* I think I should just make it a daily thing, because tues/thurs/sat throws me off, because it's almost every other day, but not quite.

For the Gyrobo

Gyrobo said...
"Why can't all posts involve bacon?"

Can I get an order of Drama, with a side of Drama?

Enter the Drama: Ok, here's what basically happened. The short, short version. I was with this girl, Cristina, sort of. We weren't together, but we were cared for each other, a lot. More than most individuals would. We had a thing, purely emotional, I swear. Yes, backwards aren't I? But in the end, after some drama (oh god, that is like another 10 chapters), after a year of not talking to each other, we started being freinds again. Freinds, nothing more, just friends. Close freinds, granted, but nothing beyond that.


Enter the Best Freind: We chatted, and I somehow (I honestly don't remember how/when) get to start chatting with Tasha, who was apparently her best freind. Though I never knew this, the times I visited Cristina and never met Tasha, I found it odd. So we chat, and we hit it off, and are great friends too. But, alas, she has a boyfreind, and to this, I say, excellent. We can remain freinds, and I will support you both in your relationship because I want my freinds to be happy.


Enter the Break Up: Tasha, and Devon (her now-ex), had some bumpy roads in the past. He broke up with her initially, then they got back together, and now she wants to break up with him. I, liking them both immensely, was saddened at this fact. I talked to them both, trying to see if there was any hope, but alas, she was dedicated in her descision.


Enter the Drama (part II): She breaks up with him. I later find out, through Devon's freind (whom is also very close to me, and closer to Devon) tells it as 'it was bound to happen' sort of thing. Me, saddened that they broke up, stilled talked to them both a bit. But, being who I am, femenine by default, I chatted more with her. He was also similar to me, but distanced himself, a lot, from both of us. And then ... the concert happened ... and after a couple of days ... I didn't mean to, but ... I started liking her.


Feelings, nothing more than feelings: What do I do? This wasn't until a week or two after they broke up, and yet, it felt too soon. I felt torn, and felt like a traitor (I didn't know it at the time, but she felt the same way, and wanted to get close too). I tried to bury these feelings, as I tend to do, because emotions kick my ass, and get me all screwed up. Meanwhile, I try to just be friends with her, chatting with her, my Ex, us three, all toghther happy as freinds, yay.

Drama, Drama, Drama: After a while, Tasha and I both know... maybe not conciously, but we both know. We both ... feel a certain way. So, it comes up in conversation. As complicated as it is, I decide it's best to get it out of the way, you know? See if she thinks of me like that, if so... then I'd be happy, if not, then I'd be glad with just being freinds... but she didn't say no ... she didn't say yes ... she said, she's thinking about it. I guess that means yes, right? But she's conflicted. "You're sort of her Ex", and "What about Devon?", and "I feel like I'm stealing you from Cristina..." I let her work things out, and help where i can, until then, we continue, being freinds, sorting out our feelings as time goes on.

Drama, take four: "Does Tasha hate me? T_T" she asked me, my Ex, that is. "HUH?" I thought, I had no idea. "When did she start doing this?" I honestly didn't know about this, she showed me no signs of distancing from her. And I thought, "Oh, I think I know why", as foolishly as I could possibly say. "I think its... because ... well, Tasha and I ... we sort of have a thing ... ^_^:" being silly, blushy schoolgirl quality smile, and manerisms, as I tend to have. The response, not quite what I was hoping for. "..oh ... you and her? OH... I get it now." "???" I thought. I was hoping for affection, for acknowledgement even, but I get something completely different. She, who grew up with a lifetime of betrayal and backstabbing, felt that it was happening again.

Wrath..? : She was angry. No, this isn't what I wanted. What? No, please ... I couldn't say anything that wouldn't make it worse. "I didn't think it would be this big of a deal..." "OH, I ONLY LOVED YOU BEFORE" she replied, angry as I have ever seen, but never aimed towards me, or around me. "Why Tasha? WHY HER? My best freind, why?" I didn't know what to say. I didn't mean it like that, I didn't do it on purpose, oh god, what have I done? We weren't even sure our relationship was anything, we just wanted to see ... what it could be come, we were still just freinds. But it was too late now, and I felt horrible.

Isolation: She does this a lot, isolate herself from me, from things, problems, whatever. I know very little about what happened in the past year with her, and still don't know a lot. This was last night, we exchanged those words, so full of emotion. This morning, I talked with Tasha. My ex told me to send her the conversation that we had, and I did, I was going to anyways, we had no secrets from each other, the three of us ... or so I thought. I thought she would hate me, but she didn't, she still talked to me, we were still freinds Tasha and I... we were both worried about Cristina. We were both worried about ... 'us'. What 'us' was, we weren't sure, but it was more than nothing, it was something. Cristina said she was going to distance herself from both of us, and that hurt. I was use to it, Tasha, not so much. I went a year with barely a "hello" from her, and even then, it was invoked by messaging her frist. Now it gets a bit emo... NOW it gets a bit emo... as if it wasn't before.

-snipet- I was talking with my little sister, the morning of, before with Tasha. She's 13, 14 this Sunday. She, though younger than me, was of great help in me sorting out my feelings. She's not really my sister, an online freind, and we adopted each other. We do treat each other like we are family though, she's so cute about being not cute, it just makes her more cute. But back on topic...

Sacrifices: We were both scared, Tasha and I. We didn't know what to do now. She lost her best freind, I lost my once love interest. Was it for good? We didn't know. This realtionship, whatever it was, was causing trouble. We felt afraid, we felt scared, we felt ... well, we weren't sure. We were both confused. Neither would say the first word, about what does this do to 'us', but I had to ask, "I don't want to ... I don't want to risk losing it." I said, over the phone, as hard as it was. "Whatever we have between us, whatever "it" is, I don't want to give up." I can be selfish sometimes right? Its ok to think about myself sometimes right? I have these feelings, and I can't always kill myself like this, trying to deny it. I did it with my Ex, and as much as it hurt, its what she wanted, so I killed it, I buried it, deep, away, where it wouldn't interfere.

Resolution: We agreed, that we would try... to think of ourselves sometimes, as much as it would hurt Cristina, though she told us to be together, and that she wouldn't interfere, we both knew it would hurt her a bit. We both loved her, but we both love each other too. We don't know if this will be anything more than a bad mistake, but no matter what, we will always be freinds, as close as we are now. We might not always be in a relationship, we're both far too twisted and paranoid for me to say for sure, but dammit, I love her, and I'm going to try. It's my only goal in life, is to find Love. My quote, is "Love, above all things, and above all things, Love." We had fears of abandonment, paranoia, depression, suicidal tendencies, and all sorts of stuff, but we were willing to let go of them for long enough to say 'lets be together'. I think that means something, we care a lot for each other, chat about everything and anything, and my god, that's when I lose the Innocence. Thats when the Critiq, gets baaaaaaaaad. And I'm normally so good, aren't I? *pouts* Hmm?

EDIT: My mistake, it wasn't her counselor who gave her the handcuffs, it was her 16 year old freind from Alabama, mymy, this is all sorts of kinky. I swear, I'm going to get arrested for having the freinds I have one of these days. I need more freinds who are OLDER than me, not YOUNGER. Especially by these degrees. Thank god for blogger, I hope you are all 18+ at the very least, and if not, oh well, we can still be freinds haha. *blush*

Coming Soon

Soon to be edited, soon to inform, a post of lost love, and not so settled relationships. A story about the Bad Critiq, before he was so bad. A story about me, the one you probably said you watned to hear, but honestly, aren't sure if you want to. It gets complicated, very. It'll take many posts, or one really big post. But emotions are extreme, as high as they've ever been, this past 24 hours. But for once, they're not bad. Well, there's bad, but not ONLY bad, there's a lot of good this time, hope, dreams, wishes. I can't say for sure when this will be posted, but hopefully soon. I do have work, and that tends to clutter up my personal life.

I WANT

BACON MACHINE? WHERE CAN I GET ONE?
(click for larger image)

Japan, truely masters.

They can make anything cute. Anything. I'm sure you've seen many pics of it, dead fish with anime eyes so they look cute, or stuff like that, so here, I post two, more rare images of proof, that Japan has created smileys to take over.

(Click for larger images.. I think)

Note to self:

Anyone ever leave files, notes, etc, to themselves by e-mailing to themself or by saving a post that has information as a draft? I do, a lot. I hope I don't accidentally publish one of these posts and forget about it. I hope none of it is THAT emberassing. =P

9/11 Facts - Fowarded to Me

Not saying I believe in it, but I feel it was interesting enough to deserve a post about it.

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1) New York City has 11 letters

2) Afghanistan has 11 letters.

3) Ramsin Yuseb (The terrorist who threatened to destroy the Twin Towers in 1993) has 11 letters.

4) bill clinton has 11 letters.

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1) New York is the 11th state.

2) The first plane crashing against the Twin Towers was flight number 11.

3) Flight 11 was carrying 92 passengers. 9+ 2 =11

4) Flight 77 which also hit Twin Towers, was carrying 65 passengers. 6+5 = 11

5) The tragedy was on September 11, or 9/11 as it is now known. 9 + 1+ 1 = 11

6) The date is equal to the US emergency services telephone number 911. 9 + 1 + 1 = 11.

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1) The total number of victims inside all the hi-jacked planes was 254. 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.

2) September 11 is day number 254 of the calendar year. Again 2 + 5 + 4 = 11.

3) The Madrid bombing took place on 3/11/2004. 3+1 + 1 + 2 + 4 = 11.

4) The tragedy of Madrid happened 911 days after the Twin Towers incident.

Sheer coincidence..?! Read on and make up your own mind:

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The most recognised symbol for the US, after the Stars & Stripes, is the Eagle. The following verse is taken from the Quran, the Islamic holy book:

"For it is written that a son of Arabia would awaken a fearsome Eagle. The wrath of the Eagle would be felt throughout the lands of Allah and lo, while some of the people trembled in despair still more rejoiced: for the wrath of the Eagle cleansed the lands of Allah and there was peace."

1That verse is number 9.11 of the Quran.

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Open Microsoft Word and do the following:

1. Type in capitals Q33 NY. This is the flight number of the first
plane to hit one of the Twin Towers.

2. Highlight the Q33 NY.

3. Change the font size to 48.

4. Change the actual font to the
WINGDINGS

Party Day + Day after Party

Friend's birthday was great. I hung out with him and his GF (we three are really close), and just hung out until late, 7ish. Got to hang out with his GF's little brother (not really, you know, close. "He's my little brother, but not really." she said. "Oh, I understand." I said. "But I don't like him like him like you like your brothers and sisters." she replied. "...ok, fine." Snipet of information: I get close to my freinds, very close, and happen to fall in love with every one of them. Granted, I don't want to be with them, but I am, indeed, in love with them, and do love them. I'm wierd like that, nya~).

We four got together and hung out for a bit, met up with 1 more freind meet up at West Coast Buffet (Japanese/Chinese/Korean/Whatever All you can eat Buffet). While eating, me and My freind's GF talk and she goes "oh, we should have got a cake!" So I sneak out and go to the nearby (3 doors down) bakery, and get Japanese Cheesecake (he loves Cheesecake) and fumbled a suprise, but it was ok. We had lots of food, cheesecake (Japanese cheesecake is actually more like cake, than pie, and has a subtle, softer flavor, than just cremey cheesecake). We went to a pool hall and arcade, but it was packed. We decided to go bowling instead, and departed quickly. Once there, we play (I was horrible), but as time went on (I got better) more freinds showed up, 2 of them, and we hung out (I got pretty good by the end of it). After, we left, the little brother and one freind (who met us at the buffet) left together, (we three think those two hooked up, rawr <3), and we 5 went to get food, hang out for a bit, then went home. I could go into more details, but it'd just make things more confusing. lol

Drove to work today, first time driving in over a month. It was a good feeling, being able to drive again, having been in two accidents now (both times, I was driving), I'm glad to say that I am only slightly been affected. After the first time, I was still able to drive, but couldn't change lanes nearly as proficient anymore, but I'm not fearful... however, bowling + DDR + 1 year of not working out or anything = UH OH, I'm sore haha.

Word 16 - Exhausted

Main Entry: ¹ex·haust
Pronunciation: ig-'zost
Function: verb
Etymology: Latin exhaustus, past participle of exhaurire, from ex- + haurire to draw; akin to Middle High German [oe]sen to empty, Greek auein to take
transitive senses
1 a : to consume entirely : USE UP b : to tire extremely or completely c : to deprive of a valuable quality or constituent
2 a : to draw off or let out completely b : to empty by drawing off the contents; specifically : to create a vacuum in
3 a : to develop (a subject) completely b : to try out the whole number of
intransitive senses : DISCHARGE, EMPTY exhausts through the muffler>
synonym see DEPLETE, TIRE
- ex·haust·er noun
- ex·haust·ibil·i·ty /-"zo-st&-'bi-l&-tE/ noun
- ex·haust·ible /-'zo-st&-b&l/ adjective

"Since my new job, I've been persuing fewer and fewer physical activities, more so than usual. Bowling for an hour and a game of DDR exhausted me completely. I'm going to slezz.zz.z.. ....zz..z.zz.z. zzzzz....z... zz..z. pretend it's saturday still, this birthday party took longer than expected, but in a good way zz.z..z.z..z.z."

Update: Bad Critiq

I don't believe I told you all, but I crashed (beyond repair) my car about a month ago, and just got a new one today. Carpooling and getting dropped off/picked up to work was a hassle, and now that hassle's gone. *Cheers* Haven't been on much these past 2 days because of it, looking at used cars for sale and taking care of stuff like that. Got a new car yesterday, and taking care of insurance stuff today. Will post a word, if I remember. <3

Spotlight: Cosplayers

Did I mention Cosplayers? Cosprayers?

Dante - Devil May Cry, 3rd one? - Game
Space Marines - Warhammer 40k- Tabletop Miniatures Game
Dhalsim - Street Fighter II series [Did I spell his name right?] - Game
Sakura - Street Fighter Alpha series - Game

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Anko - Naruto - Anime
Dosu Kinata - Naruto - Anime
Ten Ten -Tenjou Tenji - Anime
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Yuna - Final Fantasy X, Final Fantasy X-2 - Game
Rikku - Final Fantasy X, Final Fantasy X-2 - Game
Paine - Final Fantasy X-2 - Game
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Reno - Final Fantasy VII, and Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children - Game/Movie
Yuffie - Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children outfit - Game/Movie
Tifa Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children outfit - Movie
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Aries - Final Fantasy VII - Game
Cloud - Final Fantasy VII Version - Game
Cloud - Kingdom Hearts Version - Game
Cloud - Kingdom Hearts Version (different cosplayer, better imo) - Game

Edit: Good example of a BAD cosplay: Rei Ayanami - Neon Genesis Evangelion - Anime
I have some of Manfaye, but he should be infamous enough, and I don't think you need to see him. If you haven't seen him, I can describe him as, not slender, not un-harry, not flattering, not slender, again. He's a really nice guy, and I like him, as a person, I think it's great that he cosplays, but I can't like if I say his cosplay of choice doesn't bring a smirk to my face, or sometimes, a tear to my eyes.

Revisiting an old post

Samurai Champloo Cosplay Pics updated and improved upon! Go post my minion! *evil laughter* =P

do.-|so.-|do do re mi fa so|

Get it? Get it? ... no?

Word 15 - Slugabed

slugabed

One entry found for slugabed.

Main Entry: slug·abed
Pronunciation: 'sl&-g&-"bed
Function: noun
: a person who stays in bed after the usual or proper time to get up; broadly : SLUGGARD

"zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz" - A slugabed who is too lazy to think up of a sentence. (And if you want to make a sentence, you can't use this one, it's copywrited. By who? Probably not me, but I should =P)

RIAA, I fear and hate you at the same time

RIAA rears it's ugly head. (Click for larger image)

The same goes for the MPAA. These two groups are making tons of money, while leaving a fraction (a small one to boot) for their stars, be it musicians, directors, writers, etc. It's a horrible buisness, and for someone who knows many people in the industry, it's very sad. Support independent artists, they're doing it without help from the devil. The devil who offers you the world, but you become their slave, in dept, for the rest of your life. Sure you'll make money and live well, but they see 90% of it or more, that's fair, right? ... Right?

Small Post-Post-Update

Post-Post? You know, after the post. An update for everyone to see, rather than brose through the old post that may be forgotten, and here for everyone to enjoy. Too many pictures to post, so I'll just link them. <3

For Zelda Fans (and V fans) - A gift of two images for you today, I hope you enjoy them. *bows*

Dedication, thy name is Windwaker - A gift of true, dedication. I may not have loved that game, but I have to agree, that is a couple notches up on the "awesome" scale.

For the Anime Fans, you might know what this is. If not, you will probably be able to figure it out. (Preview of next Spotlight?)

*looks at Monika* Yes, I do agree though, Dogs > Cats in my book, though I do love them both. They are unbearably cute sometimes.

And to Bailey, he who loveth The Pong - I hope this incites some laughter, I know it made me crack a smile at the least.

Samurai Champloo Cosplays

Monika, a Gift for you! (Click for larger image)

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Cosplaying goodness, yes? I think they're great. I wish I had more. I think I'll post more cosplay pictures too, I have a huge random assortment of pictures, funny ones, cute ones, cosplays, webcomics, etc. I take requests, and work odd hours, so I'll respond in due time if you do make any requests. ;)

Edit: Ok, put the pictures back up, yay, with bonus images to boot! :D

Yomiko Readman - R.O.D. OVA / R.O.D. TV
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Heather - Silent Hill 3
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Vash, the Stampede - Trigun

Spotlight: Webcomics (Double Feature Premiere Post Special!)

Cyanide & Happiness





Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net


Today, I begin a new thing. Spotlight. I'll pick something that interests me, that I think will interest you, and tell you about it. Today, it's a webcomics, first: Cyanide and happiness. I think this comic is hilarious, for anyone, and everyone. Well, don't be a prude, or completely innocent, because you don't really belong on the internet. You really need to have an open mind and be a little ... unclean to really explore the internet. =P Cyanide and Happiness great, and I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

Dueling Analogs

This one will definately hit more at home with Video Game fans, 1st one, I hope Lastlifeinmyuniverse can apprecaite, but that second picture should definately make a hit with everyone. life There's plenty of other webcomics for me to share, I'll try to find more that appeal to a wider audience. Dueling Analogs is a great comic, and I hope you enjoy it as much as I have. It's still reletively new, but excellent.

Word 14 - Devious

devious

One entry found for devious.

Main Entry: de·vi·ous
Pronunciation: 'dE-vE-&s, -vy&s
Function: adjective
Etymology: Latin devius, from de from + via way -- more at DE-, WAY
1 : OUT-OF-THE-WAY, REMOTE
2 a : WANDERING, ROUNDABOUT devious path> b : moving without a fixed course : ERRANT
3 a : deviating from a right, accepted, or common course b : not straightforward : CUNNING; also : DECEPTIVE
- de·vi·ous·ly adverb
- de·vi·ous·ness noun

"Delightfully, Dameon drove down the driveway, delighting in deviating from the devious division."

Just Practicing~

do mi re fa mi so fa la so ti la do ti re do~
do la ti so la fa so mi fa re mi do re ti do~
+do mi re fa mi so fa la so ti la do ti re do~
+do la ti so la fa so mi fa re mi do re ti do~
++do mi re fa mi so fa la so ti la do ti re do~
++do la ti so la fa so mi fa re mi do re ti do~
+++do mi re fa mi so fa la so ti la do ti re do~
+++do la ti so la fa so mi fa re mi do re ti do~

*cough* The octave gets a bit high there. *cough* AHEM... Practicing, building up my range. Getting ready for future singing (some duets too) with my 'sister'. Moulin Rouge and Phantom of the Opera are on the list. ^_^:

EDIT: For those of you who don't know, this i the "Do Re Mi Fa So La Ti Do" scale, but part of 'warm up' in choir class, they have you say the above instead, going up in octive everytime (hence the pluses). You say Do, skip 2 and go to Mi, go back down to Re, skip up two to So, and continue that way, until you reach the end. Then, repeat, but backwards. I don't remember it like this at all, you just memorize it. ^_^

Daylight Savings time

Did this throw you off too? Computer updated, but my phone didn't. It nearly made me late to work on Sunday, and I think it had some long term effect on me. It feels like Tuseday to me, but I know it's Monday. *shrugs* Anyways. We've lost an hour. It's not a big deal to most, but ... I loved that hour. That was an hour I could have been sleeping. That was an hour I was suppose to shower for work, have breakfast, and have some ME time. That hour was important to me, and because my phone didn't update (which my alarm is on), I woke up, got on the computer, saw the time and ... oh crap, I'm going to be late! I rushed off to work *tear* It's Monday, but ... it's Tuesday? *spaz* Ack, daylight savings time, you caused me much turmoil! *shakes fist at Benjiman Franklin* He invented it, right? *shrugs* anyways, I need to get to work haha.

Word 13 - Forget

I'd like to do a test with you. A magical test. A supernatural test. Are you ready? Ok. Close your eyes. Now ... wait, open them again, then read this, THEN redo the whole thing with your eyes closed, ok? So, read this all first. Got it? count to 10, then get sleepy. *SNAP* wake up... ok, now, it's still Saturday when I posted this, oooo~ ahhh~ magic~ wooooooo~ :D

Main Entry: for·get
Pronunciation: f&r-'get, for-
Function: verb
Inflected Form(s): for·got /-'gät/; for·got·ten /-'gä-t^&n/; or -got; -get·ting
Etymology: Middle English, from Old English forgietan, from for- + -gietan (akin to Old Norse geta to get)
transitive senses
1 a : to lose the remembrance of : be unable to think of or recall forget his name> b obsolete : to cease from doing
2 : to treat with inattention or disregard <forgot their old friends>

"Oh crap, I forgot the word of the day AGAIN?" =(

Coming Soon

Movies coming out this year, that have caught my attention. (I think they're in order of release dates). I had this huge post with like, a paragraph about each one of these, but my browser crashed and ugh, I don't feel like tying it all out again. =( So I'll write a really short summary of it.

Silent Hill - Based on the hit video game. It's a slightly differnt from the game, but Sean Bean is in it, he's the father, and knowing him, he'll probably die in this movie. He dies in nearly all his other movies, why not this one? He stole my dream, of dying in every movie I'll be in. =P

An American Haunting - Based on a true story, the Bell Witch (Blair Witch copied the real story), in Adams Tennessee, the only 'documented case in American history where a spirit caused the death of a person'. A lot of really well respected stars in this one, looks interesting.

Da Vinci Code - I think that's all I need to say. =P

X-Men 3 - I dont think much has to be said about this one either lol

Saw III - The sequel was ok, but it wasn't nearly as spectacular as the first one. It does leave a cliffhanger ending though, that makes the 3rd one look very, very, interesting. :D

Confessions

Singing, Dancing, Pretending I'm on stage, the audience loves me, staring in the mirror, looking into my eyes, I blush, I get shy, I can't look, flutered, I look away, I look down,I bite my lower lip, I close my eyes and smile, I take a deep breath, and *sigh*, The music's playing, I can hear it all the time, the audience is waiting, I have to sing, I have to dance, an audience of none, but I like it that way. I wish I could sing, at the top of my lungs, for everyone to hear, for everyone to see, the me I am inside, not this shell of flesh and bones, but who I am inside, I'm not really strong, I'm not really all that brave, I want you to hold me, I want to feel safe in your arms, I want you to love me, I want you to caress me, I want to be able to cry in your arms, I want to be able to let my soul out, not to hide it from the world, for fear of rejection, of hate, of misunderstanding, don't hate me, please, I already hate myself, tell me I'm worthy, tell me I deserve life, tell me I made the right descision, everytime I wanted to take a knife to my own flesh, everytime I wanted to lay on the tracks of the train, everytime I think it's too much, everytime I think that I can't feel anything anymore, I feel nothing, no pain, no sadness, no happyness, no thing. Is my heart truely broken this time? Is it beyond repair? Has it ever worked? Is it something that needs to grown and become whole, or are you born with it? Was living without love and care of a family permenantly scarred me? Has that false love I recieved growing up corrupted my heart? Is it no longer pure? Am I doomed to suffer the same fate? Love me, let me grow, I'm more feeble and afraid than you think, more than I look, more than I act. I act strong, so you wouldn't worry. I act sure of myself, because I'm so unsure. I love with all my heart, because I'm afraid that I can't really love at all.