Spotlight: The Critiq and a Webcomic

It's somewhat official now, me and my ... can I still call her my 'sister'? It feels right and yet, so wrong. It's strange, we use these 'titles' to make associating with each other easier, but in the end, it seems to backfire a bit. We use these terms to help define relationships because it's awkward not knowing where your walls are, where you're limited to. Some would feel more comfortable with being boxed in, than in an open field filled with "What if"s. Initially, I wanted to just be close, but didn't think that a relationship was possible, so picking up the term Oniichan and Imotou (older brother/younger sister) was no problem, but after the possibility of being more than just good freinds came up ... it feels a tad awkward now.

We've decided we're going to go for it, and we're treating each other as 'mates' now, I guess you could say. As awkward as that sounds, it's more comfortable for me to say that then "boyfriend/girlfriend". Part of my emotional issues, steming from years of drama I guess (more on that later perhaps). But we're both broken, and trying to help fix each other. No more temporary patches of band aids and gauze, but we're going to try and fix the real problems, not the symptoms.

Feeling compete, at age 20? Probably not. I turn 21 in November, and my life feels ... good. I have someone I'm with, and I am content with where my life is right now. I have a nice job (though temporary), and am planning to go back to school eventually. I'm happy with how my life is, drama is nearly all sorted out... I don't think you can ever go look back and say "Well, I'm satisfied now." You keep going on, reaching for higher goals, and trying to accomplish more. Baby steps, baby steps, and a leap here and there. I mean, I was content with my life when I was 9... well, content with how things were enough to 'leave' it. But I guess the harder part is being content enough to NOT leave it, prematurely. I'm getting close, but not nearly there yet. I wouldn't leave it for fear of hurting my freinds, but that's not enough. I need to want to stay of my own free will, of my choice, a bit selfish, but hey, I'm allowed to care about myself just a smidge ne?

A couple notes: I've had 113 posts now I think, but nearly all of them were random blabs and jests of good humor, or bad humor, depending on how you look at it. How many deep, meaningful ones have I had? 3 or 4? At most? That's fine, I like to give life a lighter note. Too much drama, I couldn't take it if I couldn't laugh at myself now and then.

Webcomic: Questionable Content; too similar to my life for me to read anymore. I took a break from it when I lost my interent, but now that I go back and look at it, I'm concerned that it'd hit too close to home. Guy likes girl. Girl has issues, and can't get with him. Guy still likes her. She thinks she likes him. Girl's boss, one of her only friends. Boss starts liking guy. Guy starts liking boss. Guy and girl and boss, love triangle, complciated. Girl pushes guy away and guy gets with boss. Girl is torn. Guy and Boss are happy, but feel a bit uncomfortable. That's like, kind of a sum up of what happens.