Absent from the Blog, sorry ^_^;

Things are kind of hectic at home right now, sorry for not updating. Here's a slight update. On wednesday, my mom comes to me and says:

Mom "Well, I'm leaving on Saturday."
Critiq "Oh... ok.........wait, leaving for what?"
Mom "China."
Critiq "Oh... ok, sure.....wait, for how long?"
Mom "A month."
Critiq "Oh, ok .... wait, what the fuck?!"

So yeah, I've been left to tend the house with my stepdad for a month. Meanwhile, my mom and stepdad are on the verge of divorcing, having my mom come to me 2 days ago and ask me for marrage advice was kind of wierd... considering I don't paticularly want to get involved. They were (Today) having a conference in the living room all afternoon from 12~5? Anyways, I'm in my room with the curtain down (Read: I have no door, I broke it in a fit of rage one sad day) and turned up the music and tried to drown in out.

And so, combined with a lack of direction where to take my life, work or school, and where I want to live... and well, home life is as hectic as ever. Sorry if I fail to post daily, or more often than that, but I will try. Don't worry about me either, I'll be fine ... if I'm still undecided in a month, then you can start worrying xD <3

Survey says..

Someone thought about this, and one of my muses told me to get working, so here I go!

Mark your confessions:
[ ] I'm afraid of silence.
[x] I am really ticklish.
[ ] I'm afraid of the dark.
[X] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night.
[ ] I am homosexual.
[X] I believe in true love.
[xx] I've run away from home.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I collect comic books.
[x] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[x] I've stayed out all night.
[x] I open up to others easily.
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[ ] I watch the news, some of the time.
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I love Disney movies.
[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[X] I curse once in a while.
[ ] I have (had) "x"s in my screen name.
[X] I've slipped and fell in public.
[X] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation.
[x] I love Spam...
[ ] I bake well.
[x] I have worn pajamas to class.
[ ] I have owned something from Abercrombie.
[(today was my last day T_T)] I have a job.
[ ] Talked on a phone for 5+ hours.
[ ] I love Dr. Phil
[X] I like someone(s)
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[X] I am self-conscious.
[X] I love to laugh.
[X] I have tried alcohol.
[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.
[ ] I have tried a cigarette.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[(need to read/see it)] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[ ] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[X] I have a few scars.
[X] I've been out of this country.
[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[X] I love chocolate.
[X] I bite my nails.
[x] I am not comfortable with being me.
[ ] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[x] Gotten lost in the city.
[x] Thought of suicide before.
[ ] Seen a shooting star
[ ] Had a serious surgery.
[x] Gone out in public in your pajamas.
[ ] Have kissed a stranger.
[x] Hugged a stranger.
[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of the same sex.
[ ] Been in a fist fight.
[ ] Been arrested.
[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of your nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] Made out in an elevator.
[XX] Swore at your parents.
[ ] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[ ] Gotten stitches.
[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[XX] Bitten someone.
[X] Been to Niagara Falls.
[X] Gotten the chicken pox.
[XX] Crashed into a car.
[ ] been to Japan.
[X] Ridden in a taxi.
[X] Shoplifted.
[ ] Been fired.
[X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[X] Stole something from your job.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Had a crush on a teacher/coach
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] Been to Europe.
[ ] Slept with a co-worker.
[ ] Been married.
[ ] Gotten divorced.
[ ] Saw someone/something dying.
[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[X] Been to Canada.
[x] Been on a Plane.
[~half of it~] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[ ] Thrown up in a bar.
[x] Eaten sushi.
[ ] Been snowboarding.
[ ] Been skiing.
[x] Been ice skating
[x] Cried in public
[x] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.
[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[x] Thought of someone almost 24/7
[x] Hate the world. (The world, collectively, is hopelessly doomed. Individually, there is hope <3)

Without Direction

Strange. On the way to work, I was thinking. Where am I going? What am I going to do with my life now? I have 2 days left of work, including today, and so, I thought, that I would be working extra hours today and tomorrow. But, alas... I came in today, and they're doing some filming for another project, and I wasn't told work was caneclled today. Strange. I guess. Hollywood huh? Heh. Anyways, now that I'm here, they said I could work as long as I stay out of the scenes. Anyways, I'm at work... and instead of the normal work enviorment, there's make up, cables, lights, camers, and a great deal of people. Did I mentionthey don't turn on the AC on weekends?

So, conflicted now. I don't know what I want to do with my life. My friend Connie is on my case, trying to get me back into college, because she thinks it's really important for me, to have that college experience. I don't disagree, but I'm still unsure wether that's right for me.

-time passes-

Ok, one of my coworkers who is participating in this new project, was informed yesterday that ... well, Friday (yesterday), was the last day. And we didn't get paid yesterday (which I was suppose to recieve my check today), and it might be here by monday, or as late as Wednesday.

Very very conflicted now, more than ever. Get a job? College? ... and they begin filming, cell phones need to be turned off now. They're turning on the bright lights, mics, and whatnot. They're kinda blinding right now. I took pics, and ... I can't even pretend to work in this eviorment. I was told I'd be compensated for 'work' today, because I wasn't told it was canelled, and I had to drive here through traffic through LA, and Hollywood, 45 min. Great.

I'm not in the best of moods, and they'll probably call silent on the 'set' in a bit, so I'll cut this short. Sorry I've not been online posting much, I've caught myself in the crossroads now, and I've got to make a descision soon. What descision? I don't know, I'm still working on that. ^_^:

EDIT: They're letting me stay, and be an extra. Person on a computer in the background. It's pretty ... interesting what the day has become huh?

Greatest. Weekend. Ever. Word of the Day

^_________________________________^ My my my, what stories I have to tell. There was too much to remember, but ... her being my 'sister' brought up some 'interesting' situations. Incest... you wouldn't believe how often it came up in situations around us.

She came over after school, when I got to my hotel room. It was 10 min or so from her house, which is far from the Strip (note, Las Vegas is a big town. She lives a good, 30 min from "The Strip"). Well, I was giggly as fsck, as usual when we met. Second time we met in person. After 2 hours of just sitting around and talking a bit, we eventually went to eat. We found ihop across the street, and after that, decided to see a movie. Nothing was playing =( so we went back to the hotel room, because it is DAMN hot in Vegas, in the afternoon, and my hotel room was nice and cool ~^_^~. *nods*

o_o Then ... I met her parents... Her mother is ... interesting ^_^; her dad, is nice :D. Her mother is ... >_>; again, quite ... interesting. Interesting 'bad' I'd like to point out. ^_^; Afterwards, she dropped me off at my hotel, (we took turns driving ^_^:), but we got some Taco Bell first (note, I got some Taco Bell). When we walked in, she sat down and I went to order food, the woman who was serving me was like "Are you two brothers and sisters?" We were like "^_^: ehehe...yeah." She asked me if my sister wanted anything, so I look at Tasha, and go "mmm?" and she goes "^_^; no, its ok." Then, as we got our food and was about to leave, she goes "Ah-ree-gah-to" in really bad english, and we were like ">D OMFG lolol".

Then, we were just hanging out in my hotel room, and we were just watching whatever was on, and after this WIERD movie, that was jumping around, changing languages, and had a bunch of different characters and though we only caught the last 30 min, it ... well, it hurt our head, it was damn confusing.

After that, a movie "Priest" came on, and we didn't really care for it. It was really wierd too, so we didnt watch it. We held each other, and then from the TV, we heard "Why is this world filled with INCEST?" and we both choked and went >_O "EHHHH?"

And that was the first night. I can't remember much about the next few days, I took notes the first day but afterwards, we were together all the time, and I didn't take the time to take notes.
We saw Mission: Impossibe: III. Strange enough, THERE WAS MENTION OF INCEST IN THAT MOVIE TOO. To quote the movie (courtesy of IMDB):
"Luther Stickell: Was there something more going on between you two?
Ethan Hunt: Lindsay was like my little sister.
Luther Stickell: And you didn't have sex with your little sister?"

We both choked again. I mean, we didn't expect to see that movie, and for that topic to come up in an Action movie, I mean, that caught us off guard. We went to a bookstore, we see signs of it. We go to everywhere, and it follows us. But we like it like that ^_^

I'll post more as I have time, at work, haven't been working for a while, and I'll probably edit this post as it happens. But we hit nearly everything on our list! The list is a bit graphic, so children, cover your eyes:

Cheesecake, Sushi, Singing, groping, incest, hugging, kiss (singular), crossdressing, makeup, pictures, Banana, ihop

What did we not do? Well, I'll leave it to your imagination. We didn't do 'it', I guarentee you :3 Wow, reall yneed to do some work at work, I'll update more later ^_^;

Vacation Blog/Thread

Not much to say, read the replies, and then reply. Reply now if you want, then I get to reply, and I love replying. Don't get it? Read the post below. <3 Note to self: Post date/time.

Temporary Farewell

I'll be gone till Sunday, I don't think I can blog on my phone, though I can reply. It takes a while to get use to, and certain coding doesn't show up right. For example, when I try to sign in from the blogger home page, I can't click on the "Sign In" Button. Same happens when I try to search for something on gamefaqs. BUT, worst case scenario, I can post comments, so here's what I'll do. You'll see a blank comment up ahead (maybe). What it'll do is:
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a) If I can't access the new post/edit post section, I'll reply to those, if I need to. Well, depending on the post I guess. I probably won't post on Sunday, since I'll have too much to do, but I'll probably be posting a lot every night (Note: I oritinally thought 3 blanks would be enough, then thought, maybe 4, well how about 5? Now, I think 1 should be enough, just one long thread of replies, instead of 4 or 5 seperate threads). Check the Comment to see what It's about.

or

b) I can access the new post/edit post section, and then I'll delete those extra posts, and make real posts. Then they'll be happy normal regular posts. Rawr!
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So, It's 7:06 am when I'm typing this. Trip length estimated at 4.5 hours. If I leave in an hour, I'll get there at 12:30. It'll give me 30 min to settle in (or, get lost, and find my way to the hotel), and then, most likely, meet up with Tasha. One of two things will then happen, a) we spend the day together, or b) I meet her mom to be 'judged', so to speak. From here, there's two possibilities, 1) She likes me, and YAY that would be awesome, or 2) She hates me, and as bad as that is, it doesn't matter what she thinks in the end. Truely, I would love it, if she didn't hate me, but if she does (she strikes me as that kind. Hate me? No, just doesn't seem to like anyone who's going to 'take her daughter away', kind of person, from the stories I've been told anyways).

It's 7:10 am now. Wow, time is flying by. 4 minutes doesn't seem like a lot, but that 4 is a 5 now. By the time I finish posting this, I'll grab a bite to eat, and probably sit around till 8:00. From there, I'll hopefully get there on time, with no problems. Taking into account bathroom breaks and snacks, That'll probably take 20 min out of the trip now that I think about it. So, 12:45, 12:50 pm? I overworry. Have I ever told you all? I believe I have. But it's not without grounds though. Last time I took a trip out to Vegas, my radiator kinda ... had problems. I was sort of stranded there for 5 nights longer than intended (6 nights total). At that time, I was there to visit my ex, before I knew of Tasha at all. Oh, me and my ex are talking again, and I found out that she reads my blog occasionally. *waves* Hi~ ^_^ <3 style="font-weight: bold;">

Suggestions on activities, or souveniers? And remember, no, I'm not 21 so no I can't gamble. Yes, I know if I really wanted to, I could gamble, but I won't. And also no to strip clubs. No, seriously. Ok, stop proding me you all! Please~ *cries* I'm innocent ~T_T~

And with that, I leave you all with one of my favorite sayings. There's two types of people in this world. Those who need closure.

14 hours remaining...

It's 5:30 when I post this. In 14 hours, it'll be 7:30, I should be up and ready to go by then. Packed (hopefully), and having some breakfast, before I depart. I'd have a full gas tank by then (note, still need to fill it up before the night is done), and maybe, be fully rested. I didn't get a restful sleep last night. Got 8 full hours, at least, but was too excited, or worried about what 'could' happen (read: accidents). I overworry, and am usually, overly cautious when it comes to most things. Mymymy, I hope I remember to pack my tooth brush, and rainbow wig. *sighs* So ... excited ... must stay calm ... ^_^ <3

Tuesday, waiting on Thursday

OMG, my list of things to do, I'm almots ready but not ready at all. Am I making any sense? Butterflies all over, eveywhere. Tense. Ok, ok, let me calm down.





*SIGH*






ok, here we go, a list, let's go, whew, calm, lets think about it.
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* Snacks (Pocky, candy, and things of the like...I think I left them in the car, omg I think they're melting T_T)
* Drinks (Including water for the trip)
* iPod (MUUUUSIIIIIIIC <3)
* Gothic Lolita Bibles (ehehehe)
* HMM... I might want to bring some clothes too XD
* Phone, omg my phone! <3
* DS, with my games ^_^;
* Suitcase (to hold stuff.. you know, things that need holding!)
* What am I missing? @_@ I feel like I'm missing stuff

Thursday - 95% possible

work work work is almost over Sunday sunday sunday work work work tired pushing 60~70 hours this week, and taking time off next week. Hopefully everything goes according to plan. I'll probably be driving alone, but will be bored out of my mind in the absense of her presense, so I'll probably have to buy an iPod mini charger, or I won't last quite as long as I would like.

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday. I have some chores I must do.
1) iPod Charger
2) Clothes
3) Phone Plan needs to be taken care of (internet anywhere~ need! T_T <3)
4) Report my competion of Traffic School to the courts
5) Stop giggling so much >_>

Thursday, dragging into Friday

It's almost 1am when I post this. Up since 5:55am yesterday, and worked a 14 hour shift. Was at court this morning from 7:00am~9:30am, and then, from there, went straight to work and left at 12am. Court? Yeah, the accident I was in, guy decides to take me to small claims court, for $1000 USD, doesn't show up. Long story, it gets complicated, but in the end, it was just to waste my time =_=;;;

Movie I'm working on comes out tomorrow ... today, Friday May 5th 2006. See it if you want, but I don't think it'll do much good unless you have 1000 other friends whom you know to take with you. We're hoping for 7~10 million USD opening weekend, and if we get 15, we'd be damn happy, probably get a fat bonus too. You have $15 million to spare? Yeah? :D

Anyways, hope to be able to post this more consistantly in the future, after this weekend. As of right now, I'm taking next Thursday~Sunday off, to have some quality time with my girlfriend, planning to visit her :D *blush* Oh, how I long to see her, to touch her, to hold her~ (completely innocent and wholesome, I swear! <3)

I hope things go according to plan. <3

Paranoia + Redirecting Blame

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This time it's not about rock music, movies, it's not about video games, it's not about anime, it's about manga. Yes, this time, MANGA is to blame for all the problems with our children. Tis not the mistakes of parents, family, freinds, but of course, it must be SOME outside source. Indeed, we are in a dreadful time, where children are magically influenced by any negative (or implied negative) sources, and they are immedaitely consumed by it, and forced to commit acts against their will! Cry Foul! How dare they! =_= yes yes... I'm a bit angry. I am very against this American "Pass the Blame" trend that's just so easy to pick up on. "Glen Owen: Educuation Corespondent" indeed. Below is something a freind sent me, and I find that it fits so well. It's easy! Fill in the blanks accordingly, and use it in any attack against anything!

Here's the ad-lib many use to put a spin on "recent teen trends":

________: Is it really as innocent as it seems? What your children are doing with ________ may cause more reason for concern than other factors in society today. ________ has established itself as a popular medium with teens, but blatantly glorifies sex, murder, and other values that are clearly against our standard of morality.

"I'm a parent of a child who's nearly obsessed with ________ and I never knew the dangers until I really opened my eyes to it. It's shocking and should be called to attention," says one concerned parent. "________ is wrong, it should be banned. We don't need our childen indulging themselves with ________ and we certainly need to do something about it through legislation."

"I never understood the fascination with ________, but I know it should concern a lot more parents than it does right now. We need to raise the attention on ________ so that more children don't succumb to the evil that is ________ or are influenced negatively by it," says a Congressional representative, quoted under condition of anonymity. "We need to start taking action against ________ now. Not in a month, not in a week, now."

A peer who loves ________ says that adults are always "trying to crash the party" and not looking into issues that matter. However, it does seem ________ has significant effects on children and teenagers, and it should be a detail no one forgets about the next time they see ________ in their own household.

So ask yourself next time you catch your child enjoying ________, are the underlying dangers really worth it?